I'm a chin chye person but i do at least expect a little respect given as a friend. Im quite pissed loh. One more additional matter to worsened my day. Already suay day liao. At nite still kena this make me angry and upset.
She asked me to help xfer 30bucks to her friend's account cos her friend took cab back home and no money. Later she would xfer back to me. As i dont have even 30bucks in my bank and i dont dare to say, i just say i got a bit left nia (in fact only 20bucks in there cos i lent my money away and today i just got it back but its in cash lo). On the phone i told her i need to go deposit first then xfer. She says ok later i go check then tell her. I was slow in responding lo cos im finding my blardy hse keys. I guess she tot i was reluctant. All of a sudden i heard that familiar angry tone lo, "dun wan la so mafan". Walao i wana help, i found the keys le walked to doorstep le then she say like that. Damn upset siah, i only replied solemly okok cos i already darn bad mood liao for today. As i was still angry, i msg her "sorrie i realli haf 20bucks left lo, onli got cash nia. Walked to doorstep le you say dun wan and your tone is beri rude , its not a sacarsm but sad to see you still like that". I know im being petty here but im quite sick of people treating me this way loh. Not only that im angry but more of upset loh. Im also not out to make her the bad person loh. I've got no replies from her either. It further make me sian, not even a sorry for the tone. I wanted to clear the misunderstanding of that she might mistaken me for being reluctant so i left a msg in her friendster. Saying that i really do feel that im even worse than a friend loh. Not a single sorry also. Its not a big issue but i feel like im being taken for granted. Can help then smile at me, if cant then face off liao ar,is this the way?Sob Sob~ Like that still call friend meh. Since young, mum has been telling me theories of friends cant be trusted 100%. Talking about $, face will change. I dont believe in that until that in-game $ issue happened. Taking back the effort is ok lo but not taking it secretly lo. The key thing that made me upset back then was i was deleted from the buddy list loh. 1st thing comes to my mind is walao, keep telling me i wana take can de cos im boss she onli worker then blame me for taking $. Dont quit i help u train. Then what? 1) tell me split, 2)delete me from BL, 3)all the promise bian whey. If the 1st step of deleting me wasnt made, i wont be so angry lo. Im farking tired of keep giving in and giving in loh. Today its the first time i sent out angry messages. What a day!! Cant sleep yet cos im still not okay. Im being misunderstood and how i explain myself also makes no difference. I only make matters worse with my anger and poor explanation : (. Perhaps i expected too much from people. I do give friends gifts when they helped me or at least words of appreciation. And maybe i also expect the least words of appreciation given to me like "thanks". Perhaps its my bad mood today that caused me blabber out so much nonsense and throwing tantrum sigh~
She asked me to help xfer 30bucks to her friend's account cos her friend took cab back home and no money. Later she would xfer back to me. As i dont have even 30bucks in my bank and i dont dare to say, i just say i got a bit left nia (in fact only 20bucks in there cos i lent my money away and today i just got it back but its in cash lo). On the phone i told her i need to go deposit first then xfer. She says ok later i go check then tell her. I was slow in responding lo cos im finding my blardy hse keys. I guess she tot i was reluctant. All of a sudden i heard that familiar angry tone lo, "dun wan la so mafan". Walao i wana help, i found the keys le walked to doorstep le then she say like that. Damn upset siah, i only replied solemly okok cos i already darn bad mood liao for today. As i was still angry, i msg her "sorrie i realli haf 20bucks left lo, onli got cash nia. Walked to doorstep le you say dun wan and your tone is beri rude , its not a sacarsm but sad to see you still like that". I know im being petty here but im quite sick of people treating me this way loh. Not only that im angry but more of upset loh. Im also not out to make her the bad person loh. I've got no replies from her either. It further make me sian, not even a sorry for the tone. I wanted to clear the misunderstanding of that she might mistaken me for being reluctant so i left a msg in her friendster. Saying that i really do feel that im even worse than a friend loh. Not a single sorry also. Its not a big issue but i feel like im being taken for granted. Can help then smile at me, if cant then face off liao ar,is this the way?Sob Sob~ Like that still call friend meh. Since young, mum has been telling me theories of friends cant be trusted 100%. Talking about $, face will change. I dont believe in that until that in-game $ issue happened. Taking back the effort is ok lo but not taking it secretly lo. The key thing that made me upset back then was i was deleted from the buddy list loh. 1st thing comes to my mind is walao, keep telling me i wana take can de cos im boss she onli worker then blame me for taking $. Dont quit i help u train. Then what? 1) tell me split, 2)delete me from BL, 3)all the promise bian whey. If the 1st step of deleting me wasnt made, i wont be so angry lo. Im farking tired of keep giving in and giving in loh. Today its the first time i sent out angry messages. What a day!! Cant sleep yet cos im still not okay. Im being misunderstood and how i explain myself also makes no difference. I only make matters worse with my anger and poor explanation : (. Perhaps i expected too much from people. I do give friends gifts when they helped me or at least words of appreciation. And maybe i also expect the least words of appreciation given to me like "thanks". Perhaps its my bad mood today that caused me blabber out so much nonsense and throwing tantrum sigh~
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