Yup bloggie im back home...really tired. Thanks to 'motherly' allow me to go home. Anyway nothing to do there...waited since morning for something to do.
Since when i've taken up as her shadow. Her insomnia has passed on to me. Hen lei hen lei...breaking up make me realise whats love and how deep i love her. Hate is more tiring than love. Buddy studying in newcastle asked me do i hate her. That was my answer. I forgiven long ago. Love was too deep to bear hatred.

Ai qin jiu xiang yi chang xue, shun jian bing feng, jie zhe po sui.

A vivid dream that lasted for 5 year plus. Actually should had ended 2yrs ago. These 2 years ive been leaving in my own world of happiness though she was by my side. Ironic...listening to her voice hurts me, i didnt call, getting her gdnite msg im happy yet feeling complicated, this is what pple label as so near yet so far. Going out with her i kept a distance from her. She grabbed my arm while buying her shoes. I looked away, not going to show how pathetic i felt yet i didnt move an inch. Complicated i felt. I still love, yet trying to pluck out the roots in my heart...lost...someone stab me, car coming my way, death isnt scary...wont feel anymore only when my heart stops beating...too many issues tiring out my heart..............................................................................................................................................................
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