Dear Igo, how are you doing on the other side. We are all still upset over your departure. Everything was so sudden. From your illness struck till you left. You have to understand we do not want you to suffer anymore. That night when you screamed in pain broke my heart. I couldn't watch you live a life of needles and meds just because of my selfish desire to have you by my side for awhile more. I wanted to bring you home but vet says you have 2days left and pa wanted your suffering to end. You know all of us shed tears. For me I cry silently to sleep, in my bath. I see you everywhere, the place where you laid while you were sick, where you usually wag your tail when I return home. I remember the times where I tried to chase you and you ran one round over the house. Your fav belly rub that tickles you which make you shake your legs. During the last 2 days I felt so desperate when you won't respond to belly rub and you vomited hand fed milk and water. Don't worry, yumi and yuto are in good hands. Their owners are very caring and eiji is eating well. I'm trying my best not to let my sadness affect him. Someone told me dogs souls would return to visit their owners. Tall tale but part of me hope its true and I left my door opened last night hoping I could see you one last time and apologize for our decision. Mum said hope you reincarnate as human being in next life. Pa is still murmuring no choice have to let you go. I miss you too. My dearest buddy 走好.